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● 你一路好走 @ Sunday, June 21, 2009 ●

Never expect you will really give up and left the world I oway heard from my frez said that you going strong you ok le u recover le ever since I heard abt ur illness few years ago.... I tok you ok le..... althought you never been my frez but at least you are someone I did say hi and bye b4 at least you are someone I did kon you...... maybe I had even sit beside you..... and suddenly one day you not in this world le.......

you left behind your love one your family your frez..... Can you see they are all suffering? can you see how much litre of tear they drop... do u really kon abt this? can u see all these.... where did you go?

you heard ur mum words....

you guys are now accompany mi tonite maybe tml nite, but how abt next week? next year? who going to accompany mi?

I not going to keep her photo, I not going to keep her tin, how can I keep her tin? is all hers....

all her tin will remain as it is....

who am I going to talk to? she my soulmate..... I can said anytin to her one..... who can I talk to now?

Lunar new year I be crying cos one bowl less.....

Human must zi zu, all we wan is just a simple tin is to let her breathe let her stay alive let her be healthy....

god gave mi such a perfect gal why so fast take it away from mi? she our bao bei? my oli daughter.....

she is such a perfect gal..... she never scold ppl never fight wif her brother,even her bro steal her food she will just nag at him oli she never get angry over anyone.... she love her family member.... she tell her brother everytin...... they are best frez....

her last meal is cup mee and some fruit she didnt had anytin good b4 she left.......

those are your mum comment on you..... do you kon?

all those word were from her mum last nite...... at 1st I tok even I go there will just sit for few min and I will not feel any tin one I will not feel anytin I wont.....but while I was offer the respect holding the jossstick I was shivering....... I saw her pic..... I kon her..... I remember her face suddenly I remember how she smile to mi last time.... I shiver...... I don kon wat to say to her, all I say to her is 你一路好走, at least you been to world at least you been happy b4.......

They ask mi to go in take a last look I was so scare lucky cindy went in wif mi..... I dare not see but to force myself take a quick look..... she look so diff.... I feel so pain.....

I cant forget her face I cant forget her mum expression her mum words..... I nearly burst out...... but if i burst out I feel weird... I not even her frez I cry for wat..... but I don kon I just feel so sad...... is like so sad.... I saw her brother expression while he looking at her..... he look so pain in his heart..... is so hard to say in word.....

while her mum was talking I was thinking how her family going to carry on their life.... how? they are such a small family so small that every member is important to each other.... how they carry on their life? everytin will remind them of her.... tear will dry one day but pain in the heart will remind forever.... the ppl left behind is forever the one suffer..... but the ppl lying down kon ma?

Her mum was right human must zi zu, she don expect her to earn big buck don expect her to do big tin but just wan a very simple tin which is to breathe to stay healthy such a simple tin and she cant do it..... sometime we just forget this kind of simple tin and we take thing for granted.... who will count the nos of breathe we take in and out per day we just take for granted, but they are, every breathe to them is thanks god, every breathe to them is important. Sometime we are asking too much, we wan big buck, we wan this we wan that.... but we forget to love the ppl ard us we forget to slow down our feet and take a deep breath slow down our movement to take a good look at the natural the sky the sea.......

I kon they will still carry on with their life, cos life still go to move on, human still got to eat, earth still turning around but they will never forget you, cos you had once live in their life cos you had once bring them laugher and happiness cos you are forever their bao bei.

Athought ur life on earth is short but you are at least given a good family with perfect parent and brother.... you had once rec their love you are once happy.....

Lifang, 你一路好走............

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● Rec 2 news at the same timing @ Sunday, June 7, 2009 ●

just few days ago I had rec good and one bad new at the very same time.... one good new is my best frez getting married... one bad new is a person i kon b4 might not make it.....

athough i don really remember this person who is so called my schoolmate but I still feel sad when i rec this kind of new.... ok she is abt the same age as us and she might be leaving this world very soon while the other hand who oso abt the same age is getting married and wil be leaving to NZ for 3 years..... the 2 case really having such a great diff.... both new affect mi.... while i tin the latter is much much more.... I really do feel sad that why she such a young gal can be having such life she struggle to breathe and count for every breathe she had every min to her is precise every min to her in this world is meaningful to her. sometime we just take tin as if it should be this way as if ppl owe us but we forget how meaningful to live in this world.... how wonderful you can breathe..... i experience this oli when I was taking my open water test trip.... i forget to check the amt of air in my tank till can feel is lacking oxyen, that kind of feeling is scary... really... the moment the instructor give mi just one breath of oxyen you really thank god that thanks god for giving mi oxygen thank toa pek gong for leting mi stay alive..... can breathe is wonderful....

athough I do feel sad... but I don see a point to go hospital see her cos I really not her frez... I oli her schoolmate which i hardly talk to or can say never talk to her oli smile..... I never been her frez I never had her mobile nos and I never go out wif her..... do I need to visit her?

but there oways such er xin ppl calling and msg ppl to tell the whole world of such tin.... this person was fucking damn weird don you tin so???? if she wan to tell the whole world can summary the detail if ppl wan to kon will auto ask you one if you the one who spread the word right????

she CB weird.... how I wish she lost my mobile number one day.... then I can really had peaceful life.......

nevertheless I still hope this schoolmate of mine can pull throught this critical period and get well... and live like a 25 years old gal enjoy ur life cos you just got ur degree not long ago really hope u can make it my schoolmate......